Silence

The silence seems to penetrate

The gaps inside my soul
Seeping into tiny fractures
Filling all minute holes

The opaqueness of the hollow
The vaccum of the void
The screaming of the empty air
The sanctity destroyed
 
Alone appears the constant
Alone appears the fact
Alone appears the future
There ain't no turning back

Jailed in a room of my making
Trapped chainless in despair
The windows may appear unbarred
Look closely. They are there.

For there are tick marks on the walls

Counting one day at a time

One for each that silence beckons

Each day an unknown crime

Alone appears the constant

Alone appears the fact

Alone appears the future

There ain't no turning back

Black

You hold my head down

In the blackness of midnight water

Following blindly

Like an innocent lamb to slaughter

You shake off my arms

That grasp at your cold and wooden frame

You see not the glow

The dying of the lover’s red flame

The unseeing eye

Blurred; swirled in its hazel green hue

Sees only darkness

The light of love cannot make it through

Taking on water

The gift; the pure void filling my lungs

Below I remain

Love given, love rejected, love plunged

Sharp

My heart was broken in various forms

I can show you all the times

I picked up the pieces

I didn't mind

The flats and the naturals

I only minded

The cuts and the sharps

The broken rhymes

Shanghai

Meeting in a land of darkness

A land of unrelenting cold

We held each other’s icy hands

Hoping we weren't forced to fold

Searching for a word in silence

Something to hang a thread on to

The tears fell ever more frequent

The constant feeling of black and blue

Slowly the pain became a mold

Always present but stored away

In times a mask was needed

A faked smile put on display

We carried on in the graying dawn

The one’s feelings growing stronger

The other’s heart remained untouched

As if he could love no longer

We wrote of other love in poems

Our souls bleeding with open wounds

We wrote of fear and of heartache

One love’s stifled in a false cocoon

We visited far off places

From our memories to Shanghai

We spoke of uncertain futures

But never of saying goodbye

So now one sits in the silence

With the deafening sound of air

She carries on throughout her day

Given only to despair

One day the darkness shall lift again

And with it, life’s full delights

Until then she sits heartbroken

Allergic to love and light.

Left For the Shadow

Please tear my heart

Into tiny pieces

Rip it to shreds

So there’s no hope of repair

Melt down my soul

Into bits of metal

Cold and leaden

So there’s no chance of rebirth

Breakdown my trust

Into tarry rubble

Blackened and thick

So there’s no hope that remains

For if my love

Is left for the shadow

I ask you this

Leave nothing to recover

Empty

A cadaver with a heartbeat

A cold and lifeless hand

One used to stroke his gentle face

Lies dying in the sand

Sailing a ship of cellophane

And fragile broken hearts

The storm was quick and full of might

Limb from limb torn apart

What remains is but a casing

The soul was washed away

A psoriatic heart remains

Scaled. Hardened. Frayed.

A cadaver with a heartbeat

Is all that now is seen

An empty shell of what was here

And of what could have been

Broken Keys

I just wanted to be happy

Feel the sunshine on my face

But every time I look upward

The clouds work to erase

I just wanted to have a smile

Feel as if there were no cares

But every time I look inward

There’s nothing living there

I just wanted to be loved

Feel as if I'm the one to hold

But every time I reach outward

Their heart turns hard and cold

I just wanted to hear the music

Feel as if the notes came with ease

But every time I reach forward

The piano had broken keys

I just wanted to feel something

Feel elation or feel the pain

But every time I look downward

There’s only scars and marks and stains